I had to become truly happy to be able to see who I truly am. And to achieve it, is a one day at a time step, from the steps I’ve prepared.
But to be truly happy was and is a totally different story.
One thing that took me the longest to learn, was to love myself and all that comes with that, good and bad. The bad things, events, teach us lessons that if are learned we wont repeat them or let them occur again. And when I thought I had managed to accomplish that I realized that there is more. Loving all around you, life, people. And people are tricky. It’s a very vulnerable thing to love them, despite how much they’ve hurt you or how much you try to avoid them. I love some from distance. A distance from where they can’t hurt me anymore, but I am still grateful that they have teached me some important lessons of what not to achieve or look for in life, and that was their purpose. I wouldn’t want to be in their shoes, that’s for sure, but if they would ever need my help, I would be there.
You know kids, are born kind and full of love. And they love you at first sight and get passed sorrow with wind’d speed. I think this is one important thing we forget as adults. We don’t love people at the very first sight, we try to know them better to see if they fit into our lines of people we can accept and then maybe, just maybe we might care for them. And the sorrows, the sadness we can bring one another can last for years. What a waist of time and energy! It amazes me still, how people can hold grudges for years and never let them go, to be free, happy. You can’t hold grudges and be happy.
Oh and life is so short. It is hardly giving you a heads up that it will end at a certain point and if you manage to see that point, then you will see how much time you’ve lost with grudges that haven’t brought you anything. When you manage to get pass that, you should start some mindfulness exercises, and just be present where you truly are, not in the present or the dreams of the future, and then my friend you will start to see the first glimpses of happiness.
Happiness isn’t found in a person or a moment but in all persons around you, in nature, in a song’s bird, in a whisper, a touch, a smile, a song. And when you are there, you will see the potential you have and everything around you, and that only sky is the limit.
Dare to be happy, dare to live now, dare to be!
*picture is taken by me in Firenze, at Ponte Vecchio – a place where I felt truly happy- soon a story about it –